Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Backyard City Garden 2020 Vlog 2

Sigma Gamma Rho Sorority Inc. Beta Chapter Spring 2020.

I Miss Thrifting

We are not on complete lockdown in DC but everything non-essential is closed.  😢 Which means the thrift stores are closed.  Don't get me wrong I understand why.  It's just my daughter's birthday is this months and normally we would go to the thrift store and walk around, talk looking and searching.   We would go to eat, come home, wash and/or play with her new items.  It was an event for us.  My daughter loved it. I loved it.  I don't miss shopping, I miss the experiences with my daughter for her birthday.

So I'm online looking for fun stuff within budget for her.  It's not the same experience.  I can't share this with her because she will see things outside our budget and want them.  I then will have to say no or tell her that is over our budget.  I rarely almost never had to do that at the thrift store.  No child getting excited for their birthday wants to hear that's not in our budget.  My daughter understands budgeting but still what parent wants to say no on a birthday.

The change in life due to COVID-19 is a lot.  Some of the changes haven't been fully felt yet.  I'm feeling this one.

Be Blessed and Safe
I'm Still Smiling

Saturday, April 4, 2020

WOW I Forgot

Life has been so much that I just forgot.  I forgot I had this space to share.  I forgot that I use to enjoy this.  I forgot that this was the first.  This was before YouTube.  Before I returned to school (I believe).  This was the space I thought and still think no one was watching but I did it anyway just because.  I enjoyed this until I didn't.

I know why I stopped enjoying this.  Comparison.  I started comparing my space to other people's success.  I started wanting what they had and if I couldn't have their success then it wasn't worth it.  It's sad to think about but it's honest.  I still have that feeling but I don't let it stop me as much as I use to.  I've done things during my time back at school I wouldn't have done if I allowed comparison control me.  Because I have definitely done things differently think others.  It leads to loneliness sometimes.  However, it has also lead to me knowing God and myself more.  Some times becoming more of who you are meant to mean being less available for who people think or want you to be.

I really have missed this.  I can't guarantee I will do this more often but now I remember.

Still Smiling